I just completed my first biathlon today.1hr 25 min.
That's fast okie!
Anyway,I do not wish to talk much about that.
I realise that I am getting quite complacant about the achievements that I have achieved.I do not know why i do that,but I kind of irritated my friends one way or the other by saying same things over and over.
Next,I really have no idea about what i'm going to do or what am i doing either.I seems to be lacking in my spiritual side and my mental side.Dropping real low in the spiritual side especially.My spiritual side is not refering to religion but to my flow of balance with nature and body.
I cant see what I am doing is going to benefit me.My determination have been on and off,this is upsetting my balance of concentration .I just have my sheer focus and nothing else.
Perhaps it's just the lack of main goals of what I want as usual.
I have been bragging long enough for now.It's way all craps.However,I guess that is about the only thing I can boast about .I really dunt understand myself.
I need some encouragement and concern here! Give me!
It seems that I need to get back my balance,concentration and focus.
Come On ! Focus!
I cant joke anymore.Gee.I just do not know what to do !
*When facing difficulties,do not become bitter...
...instead become better.
*Do you want to win?Or do you want to live?
Just fighting is ... meaningless
Just surviving ... is meaningless
I WANT TO WIN
I wondered.With this kind of steel focus,how long will I last.Perhaps I will last and get what I want .but to the end I might just be doing things that I dint want at all.The reason being that I feel that i'm gg against the flow.I constricted,forced myself to focus ,but seems not much options left to focus. It's self-defeating!
I cant feel the righteous in this way of focus ...but what else can motivate me?
TELL ME!
What are you doing?! Get up and fight!
Is this what you call fighting?
What are you afraid of?!
Are you afraid of defeat?
If you are afraid of defeat,then get stronger.
If your're afraid you cant protect your friends,then get stronger
and swear to protect them!
If your are afraid then keep getting stronger until you can crush it
Even if you believe in no one else,stand tall and shout it!
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Do you want to fight
This is the kind of motivation i really need.
Really...
Spur me to max...
